~ I'm Still ~

the same~

I'm still using the stupid techniques!
why? why can't I change? what is the main key to let me change?
everything is out of control!! Is out!!

I don't want just improve! I'm looking forward to WIN!
I think I haven't come out from the stupid game! but I know I shouldn't!

I'm envy! seriously I'm envy!
what to do? is fate!

I train so hard! I listen so much!
but I cannot improve SO MUCH!! instead of a little bit!!

what is the purpose of crying like hell for getting nothing?
is nothing!! I can't sense I'm improving even a piece of shit!!
sorry I'm being rude~

how many competition for me to go?
and how many of them I can take part?
HOW MANY?

and how am I going to win those peoples instead of just improving a little bit although I'm losing?

argh! what am I doing?
what am I talking about?
I really don't know what should I do next!

and I'm replying to my own previous post~
I said I won't disappoint all of you that supporting me!
but, SORRY, I can't make it!
I disappointed all of you~
I broke the promise!!
and I'm not brave at all!!

*sorry*